I’m sitting watching the waves crash on the shore line, wind blowing the palm trees and I can see vessels carrying cargo in the distance.
It’s a stunning day at the coast and my mind is wondering away. My thoughts and feelings mulling around in my mind as I soak in the peaceful scenery that surrounds me.
It dawned on me that the theory of love and life is definitely not one and the same, the question of being able to live without love and can it be done is just something I have always answered no to, but as I sit here at this beautiful guesthouse away from the madness of home and the city of chaos I realize yes it most certainly can be done.
We are most definitely the creators of our own dreams and navigators of our own adventures, why the heart has to play a role for us is crazy. There are other things to love, love of life, love of our existence in this world that spins at a speed that if we don’t stop and start living our lives not only we don’t stop now to notice the what if’s , bucket lists and wishful thinking, then we may just reach that stage of regret and “if only I had” moments when it’s all too late.
Relationships are a hindrance in our progressive state of mind…
It’s taken me 40 years to see this. 40 years of heart ache and tears after each bad decision. I always say there don’t seem to be any good guys left or ones that can just be on the same trail of adventure and mentality like I am…. In actual fact, there never will be. I am changing at an alarming rate, so much so that when a new challenge comes my way I already know how it’s going to pan out and can already decide for myself if it’s worth going through. Knowing the outcome, I would rather not pursue It and have now realized my inevitable search for love and the happily ever after is not within reach because that childhood dream is in the past and well past its sell by date.
No instead I am happy to live my life for myself, equipped with the tools and strength and know how of what I have learnt. I could steampunk my way into any direction I choose and can only ask to meet other hopefuls just like me and build friendships and companionship that will ride along with me into the great unknown of life. More now than ever I know it’s a definite possibility of endless stories to dream and even better stories to tell.