The Wolf she became…

 

 

 

 

 

 

With heartache comes pain and with pain comes sadness.  After bearing this pain through the many heart breaks and promises, over and over again, it teaches you to find the inner strength you struggled to find from a early age, the we were supposed to get to grips with from the beginning.

Protect Your Pack – my family is mine and mine to keep.  Which of course includes the man I bring into my heart and into my life. Anyone who hurts them or threatens their happiness I will take out. No compassion and no fear because my family comes first no matter what.

Show No Fear – everything I have faced in my life has had its own element of fear and with every inch of my being and light of my soul had to face the fears that consumed me.  The fear that allowed the darkness to enter. The fear, that fear, took over my will to carry on and through my belief and calling out to God saved me from the place I drowned in. I’m still consumed by the dark but have found a light that brings the balance and the hope, and together it helps face the fear of the unknown.

Respect The Elder – I am still part of the generation who has respect for my parents and elders which includes authority figures in the workplace and society. Yes my patience at times is tested and rules of morals are broken but the respect will always be there.

Howl To A New Tomorrow – with this comes faith, Hope and positive thinking. To close your eyes each night with the want for a fantastic tomorrow. I try and it’s hard sometime especially those Sunday nights lol, that bring on that daunting Monday. Listen, I even try change a Monday up by doing something out the ordinary you just to get me through it.  We have to hope for new tomorrow it will bring new adventures and a new look on life and it’s what we need through our weakest times.  Without it where does it leave us, no hope, no dream, no tomorrow.

Leave Your Mark – not done deliberately but I have only ever hoped I bring something to someone’s life. Obviously always wanting it to be good and in particular and something I seem to be very good at, is the gift to show even the coldest hearts love. So when our interlude has come to an end or even as we stay friends for life that something I have given, that feeling of warmth and fuzziness, the butterfly effect of love, can be taken into their next journey in life.

There are a few more attributes that the wolf’s guidance has given me these are just a few.

The Wolf is my spirit animal and rejoice in its nature to work through me in living, adapting and showing me who I am not this world and who I want to be for this world. In the end it’s me, sometimes difficult to understand and sometimes difficult to handle. It’s me and only I know how to be the best of me.

XXX

A dedication…

You’re my love, my life
The air that I breathe
You’re my soul, my happiness
The all that I need

You’re my light, my dark
The stars in the sky
You’re my ups, my downs
The reason I try

You’re my strength, my weakness
The love from the start
You’re my heartache, my pain
The beat of my heart

You’re my tears, my joy
the love that you bring
You’re my world, my galaxy
Cindy you’re my everything

XZZ

Funny story…

So I been living in Durban North for 8 months now and honestly never ever thought I would love it as much as I do… I’m in love with Durban.

This is coming from someone who dislikes humidity immensely, who every visit to Durban on holiday would complain endlessly about how I would never live in such a sticky and hot city.

It’s an absolute no no to showering and being drenched in sweat after you climb out the shower you just want to shower again… But then you just feel like the melting ice caps so there really isn’t a point.

Hair is frizzy, make up just runs down your face, and nothing you wear is cool enough for this weather…

Air cons… Air-conditioning everywhere. Cars, home, office, shopping centers, restaurants… Everywhere you go there are aircons and thank goodness for that.  However, having that coldness blow on you 24/7 just causes other irritants like colds and flu, bone and muscle ache and sinus… Never have I lived in a place where everyone sounds nazily and blocked up.

Yet despite these horrid complaining and reasons not to live here.. I’m extremely happy.

Better then Cape Town… Definitely!

Better then Joburg… Well the city yes but I do miss my folks and all my fur babies…

The rules are:

1.  Always finish a warm/hot shower with a cold shower, to avoid that feeling of not drying your body after shower.

2.  Towels and damp clothes need to be air dried outside to avoid that ‘miff’ smelling material that ends up mouldy.

3.  Leave cupboard doors open to allow air to circulate through your clothes to avoid that damp ‘ miff’ smell from the air.

4.  Ensure you have a swimming pool. I live 2km from the ocean and not a damn will I swim in it. It’s dirty and sometimes smelly, but in total honesty nothing better then sitting on the beach, taking in the waves and sea breeze after a busy day at work.

5.  There is a saying… What comes after 2 days of rain in Durban?  Monday!  Lol it’s true but I can be sitting at my desk, aircon on, beautiful blue skies outside but let it reach weekend and it rains. Inside is hot, outside is wet lol

…. on a side note I had a completely different wind and rain statement which was wrong…. Lol proof in new to Durbs. Lol

6. Food has to be kept in the fridge especially veges and fruit. Have you seen what happens to potato when they left in a humid environment even in those brown bags… Let’s just say it’s a nasty experience of exploding potatoes and it’s totally disgusting.

To be continued.. Lots more tips to make your stay as beautiful as what I’m living..

I’m just saying…